Where are you when I need you the most? I feel so alone right now recovery seems like a dream that I may never achieve. I feel stuck in a nightmare. My head hurts from attempting to purge I do not even know what I'm doing anymore. I am exhausted mentally and physically. I do … Continue reading The voice.
Month: September 2021
Lets be aggressive.
This morning I had my appointment with the dietitian which went quite well I was able to articulate what I needed from him even if I did not like it. I told him we need to be more aggressive and I need him to be more honest with me and not beat around the bush. … Continue reading Lets be aggressive.
Pacing.
I find myself pacing back and forth mentally I am preparing for a binge & Purge. There is so much noise inside my head I feel mentally worn down and tired. I pace back and forth in the kitchen thinking about foods that are easiest to purge there's a small voice inside my head whispering … Continue reading Pacing.
Mentally exhausted.
I am trying to surf through this emotion all I want to do is binge and Purge. I have had this feeling for the past 90 or so minutes and I wish I could say the urge has decreased but in fact quite the opposite. I have tried to keep myself busy I have done … Continue reading Mentally exhausted.
My recovery from a life time of eating disorders. 