I am up 600 grams today, yes I am tracking my weight because I need to prove to myself I will not gain forever and it will slow down. I need to prove to myself nothing bad will happen and life will continue on as normal. I am trying to breathe and focus on why … Continue reading A wake up call.
Month: January 2021
The beginning.
I promised myself the start of the new year I would put my energy into recovery instead of releasing. Even writing that it scares me, the voice in my head laughs at me for even thinking about recovery. How can I recover when I weigh this much? or if I gain weight before hospital, I … Continue reading The beginning.
My recovery from a life time of eating disorders. 